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  • Do you think this scammer just hopes they will, with luck, contact someone named Annie who does yoga?

    For the record, I'm a man whose name is not Annie and I don't even like yoga.

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  • Had an interesting observation about presidential campaign signs driving through Indiana.

    In general, Indiana is deep red.

    I drove from the very my home just outside of of the mixed red/blue town of Terre Haute through very red Indiana counties to relatively nearby but not inside the mixed red/blue town of Bloomington (more blue than red there). In both cases, not in the towns, so essentially from Republican territory through Republican territory and ending in Republican territory.

    I only saw three Harris signs, which didn't surprise me... but I only saw two Trump signs, one of which I know has been up for months.

    Even houses with things like those stupid thin blue line flags on flagpoles didn't have Trump signs.

    On top of that, neighbors of mine who I remember having Trump signs the last two times around do not have them this time. I live in a massive subdivision- probably 70 homes- and I have only seen one Trump sign while walking or driving through it.

    Make of that what you will.

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  • I don't get it. No matter what I get when I go to the nearest dispensary in Illinois (Indiana sucks), the person behind the counter says one of two things:

    They invariably either say, β€œthat’s my favorite” or β€œhave you tried it yet? I keep wanting to.” I’m wondering if management is telling them to do it or something, but I'm not sure how it helps sales if I'm already buying it. It's really weird.

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  • The β€œdril sold his account” theory is a case study in memetics and mass psychosis
    medium.com The β€œdril sold his account” theory is a case study in memetics and mass psychosis

    or β€œI’m a very normal person who read 11,000 dril tweets in 5 days”

    The β€œdril sold his account” theory is a case study in memetics and mass psychosis

    What's a good community to post things like these?

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  • Ideas with storing electrons and or light in a container

    Storing electrons in a container

    Maybe like how can fill a container with a gas like air could maybe do the same with each individual electron in a container.

    Could perhaps emit each electron into a container maybe like how an electron emitter / electron gun can emit each electron from the negative electrode. Then maybe can be able to emit each electron into a sealed container to store each electron not attached to an atom. I guess an electron not attached to an atom are as a free electron. Which maybe can call this an electron bottle.

    Should probably have the entire inner surface of the container be made out of a conductive material so can maybe be able to both add each electron into the container and to remove each electron from the container. Should probably ensure have an electrically insulative material surrounding the conductive surface so as to prevent emitting each electron outside of the conductive surface. With removing each electron should maybe have a diode to ensure each electron move a specific direction.

    If for some reason each electron can go through the container then maybe should use a material for repelling magnetism maybe like a diamagnetic material like a superconductor or something else like pyrolytic graphite or bismuth. This way can perhaps repel magnetism of each electron which then perhaps repels each electron. A superconductor perhaps have a stronger repelling effect compared to something like pyrolytic graphite and bismuth. Which also perhaps pyrolytic graphite have a stronger diamagnetic effect than bismuth.

    • Maybe could even use something like copper or aluminum to maybe be able to repel each electron from each electron’s magnetism causing eddy currents with either type of material.

    Which then with using a material for repelling each electron then it might be more difficult to be able to collect each electron. Could probably have a section of the electron bottle with no or at least less of a magnetism repelling effect which are as a conductive surface. Which then to perhaps have something like a removable magnetism repelling material, diamagnetic material behind on the outside of the conductive surface with less or no magnetism repelling effect. This way if the diamagnetic material are in the section with no or less magnetic repelling effect then maybe to repel each electron inside of the container. If to remove the diamagnetic material then maybe to allow each electron to conduct into the conductive surface which then perhaps can be collected.

    Electron bottle: Energy generation

    Another thing to mention is maybe since each electron always move maybe like with zero point energy then can maybe be used for generating energy.

    Maybe for example since each electron emit electromagnetism then perhaps each electromagnetism could affect the conductive surface area to cause current and maybe even go through the electron bottle so can perhaps affect a coil to cause current that way. This way maybe can collect electric current without removing each electron. Though with just collecting current from the inner conductive surface then probably to have a higher chance of collecting each electron and perhaps especially more likely if the conductive surface does not effectively repel each electron.

    Maybe either way if effectively repel each electron or not could maybe cause heat which can also maybe be another way to be used for energy. Maybe the heat could power a thermoelectric generator for electric current. Maybe even emit infrared light could power an infrared solar panel for electric current that way.

    Also just to mention the conductive surface with the electron bottle that can perhaps act as an electrode like as a negative electrode to emit each electron in the container. I guess in order to effectively emit each electron should be heated up. So maybe another idea how how it could heat up is just by each electron inside of the container itself could perhaps heat up the container. Maybe like magnetism from each electron can heat up the conductive surface.

    Maybe another idea could be to collect each electron to for example use with a circuit and then add each electron back into the container. Though this might have a higher chance of losing each electron being emitted from a circuit.

    Below ideas regarding how to maybe affect each electron to move at a faster speed so can maybe generate more energy maybe like with each electron’s electromagnetism to induce more current. Perhaps to cause more heat maybe like with collision with inner wall of the electron bottle or electron’s electromagnetism to cause heat with the electron bottle:

    Electron bottle: Other ideas with generating energy

    Gravity / gravity wave to maybe be able to affect each susceptible electron to maybe move at a faster speed.

    Movement of the electron bottle. Maybe if the electron bottle were to move to hit an electron with added movement speed. Or maybe with a material for reflecting magnetism like a diamagnetic material to maybe reflect each susceptible electron’s magnetism to reflect the electron away with more movement speed that way. Maybe like this could be caused from sound vibrations for example.

    • Maybe similarly this could perhaps happen with heat since perhaps heat is vibration of each atom.

    Light. If light can hit an electron then could maybe cause to move faster. Maybe with heat could make infrared light inside of the electron bottle to affect each susceptible electron that way. If can have a transparent electron bottle then could maybe more easily allow light from the outside into the container maybe like visible light. However with a transparent container maybe due to each electron emitting electromagnetism to be able to emit various spectrum of light that could be dangerous maybe like UV light to easily go through the transparent container. So perhaps an opaque container are ideal to perhaps block harmful light.

    Electron bottle: Gravity waves

    Maybe since an electron attracts gravity and if to move to make a gravity wave.

    So maybe each gravity wave can have a push and pulling effect towards the direction the gravity wave are moving.

    If to store electrons in an electron bottle then maybe since each electron constantly move maybe like with zero point energy then could constantly emit gravity waves maybe in many directions of the electron bottle. This way can repel matter from many directions of the electron bottle.

    Maybe if for example have an electron bottle with a dense block of matter maybe like made of iron attached to the outside of the electron bottle then maybe each gravity wave that move towards the direction of the dense block of iron to push and pull on the dense block of iron to maybe cause to move towards the direction of the dense block of iron maybe like a thruster.

    So for example maybe this could be useful for spaceship propulsion.

    Electron bottle: Notes

    Maybe heat from each electron maybe like with colliding with the inner wall of the container to maybe cause heat. With heat can maybe heat up the conductive surface / electrode of the container to maybe be able to emit each electron easier like as an electron emitter maybe like with both wanting to add or remove each electron.

    Since each electron perhaps repel each other do to the same electric charge then maybe each electron reduce how effective can add each electron into the electron bottle. Which also maybe due to each electron repelling each other then maybe can force each electron closer to the inner wall of the container to for example cause more heat maybe by colliding with the inner wall and or from electromagnetism.

    Electron bottle: Possible dangers

    If to open the electron bottle with electrons inside then could perhaps be dangerous like maybe could cause burns like with human skin and blindness like with each human eye.

    • Maybe similarly if to discharge each electron from the container quickly then maybe since each electron are moving through the conductive electrode to maybe cause heat which maybe could be harmful like with being able to burn like with human skin and even break the electron bottle maybe like with melting it which then perhaps suddenly release each electron stored in the container.

    Storing light in a container

    Maybe the higher spectrum of light the more difficult it is to store in a container. Maybe like with visible, microwave spectrum are difficult to store in a container. However maybe could more easily store lower spectrum of like the radio wave spectrum of light inside of a conductive container.

    Maybe could for example for emitting the radio wave spectrum of light could have an antenna inside of a conductive container to emit each radio wave. Which the antenna should definitely be insulated from the conductive inner wall.

    Could maybe call a container for storing light a light bottle.

    Also just to mention maybe due to a superconductor not having a lot of resistance can be useful with storing light so as to maybe reduce energy loss from resistance.

    Light bottle: Gravity waves

    Maybe if a photon (I guess an individual light particle / wave) were to collide with another photon then maybe each photon to annihilate while making an electron and positron. Which just to mention a positron are perhaps the opposite charge to an electron.

    Perhaps due to each electron and positron attracting gravity to then attract gravity and maybe if the electron and positron collide to make 2 photons and losing gravity maybe making a gravity wave.

    So maybe this can be another way to make gravity waves using light.

    Maybe information about photon reflecting off of another photon:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Two-photon_physics

    Maybe also something related are DelbrΓΌck scattering:

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delbr%C3%BCck_scattering

    Light bottle: Energy generation

    Maybe similarly to with the electron bottle with generating energy using each electron maybe like with constantly moving like with zero point energy could maybe be similar with an electron and positron from a photon colliding with another photon. Which just to mention perhaps a positron also emit electromagnetism so perhaps could work similarly to an electron with generating energy. Which also perhaps due to an electron and positron being opposite charge to attract to each other and perhaps collide to annihilate to perhaps then emit 2 photons, maybe each as a radio wave as radio waves that collided from before. Which then perhaps lose emitting electromagnetism as before when there were an electron and positron.

    Maybe another idea with generating energy from storing light in a light bottle could be from each photon directly maybe like also due to each photon constantly moving maybe like with zero point energy. Maybe could cause energy like heat, maybe current like with the radio wave spectrum of light without losing energy. Though I think maybe due to colliding with the interior of the light bottle to lose energy / amplitude maybe like as heat so maybe not easily able to use for energy that way.

    Light bottle: Possible danger

    If the container are suddenly opened releasing light then could perhaps be dangerous perhaps like with causing burns like with human skin and blindness like with each human eye.

    • Which also should perhaps be careful to limit how much light discharge from the container as perhaps when discharging could cause heat with the light bottle which if too much heat could maybe cause damage and break the light bottle opening it maybe like from melting.

    Light bottle or electron bottle: Note

    With either an electron or light bottle should make sure the inner container are of a vacuum so can maybe reduce resistance and with causing heat and also so can perhaps have more storage space.

    More information

    More information about storing electrons and light and other information like with most likely aliens abducting and exploiting people as a resource in a text document called β€œInformation about totalitarian and manipulative aliens.odt”, also with picture in the post perhaps also prove these aliens are real:

    https://lemmy.world/post/18504237

    • Also there are links to a zip file and google drive folder that include other text documents files like video files referenced in the β€œInformation about totalitarian and manipulative aliens.odt” document.

    • When mentioned storing electrons or light are near the bottom of the document β€œInformation about totalitarian and manipulative aliens.odt”. Each title for storing electrons or light are in bold text with cyan highlight. Title in the document for storing electrons: "Storing electrons in a container" . Title for storing light in the document: "Storing light in a container".

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  • I just had the idea to make stickers of one of our dogs and give them to my daughter whenever she gets a good grade.

    She's absolutely obsessed with dogs, especially our two dogs, especially Charlie, the little one. She could use some encouragement for schoolwork. A friend is giving her daughter temporary tattoos of her cat's face for when she has a bad day at little league and I thought that would be a cool similar thing to reward my daughter with when she gets a good grade. She already likes stickers. Now I'm going to figure out what kind of thing to display the stickers on.

    In case you were wondering, StickerApp had an okay deal based on the ones I looked at and I know Sticker Mule has the horrible pro-Trump CEO. I hope I made a good choice.

    !

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  • My fashionable chapeau has arrived!

    You know how sometimes you see something that's really expensive, but you have to have it because you know it will look great on you?

    Best $11 (with tax) I ever spent on eBay!

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  • cat dog bag cartoon

    old ones resurface

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  • Someone linked me to an AI song generator, so I decided to have it write a mariachi song about how Lemmy is better than Reddit and how Lemmy moderators deserve to be paid. You're welcome.
    aimusic.so Viva Lemmy Listen and Download | AI Music Generator

    Explore the vibrant community spirit of Lemmy through 'Viva Lemmy', a lively mariachi-inspired anthem celebrating freedom from ads and corporate influence. Generated by Suno AI.

    Version 1 is better than version 2.

    I finally found a use for AI.

    Also, I accept Paypal.

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  • Presidential debate: Who won - Trump or Clinton?
    www.bbc.com Presidential debate: Who won - Trump or Clinton?

    The third and final presidential debate is over. Who came out on top in Las Vegas?

    Presidential debate: Who won - Trump or Clinton?

    > This may have been the debate Donald Trump wanted, but it wasn't the one he needed. > > With one last chance to make a pitch to the American public that he should be trusted with the presidency, the Republican nominee had to make efforts to expand his base of support. > > He had to find a way to distance himself from the allegation that he has a history of sexual harassment. > > He had to position himself as the change candidate - just days after a Fox poll showed that Hillary Clinton, whose party has held the presidency for eight years, was beating him on the question of who would "change the country for the better". > > Instead, after roughly half an hour of something resembling an actual policy debate about the Supreme Court, gun rights, abortion and even immigration, the old Donald Trump - the one who constantly interrupted his opponent, sparred with the moderator and lashed out at enemies real and perceived - emerged. > > He called Mrs Clinton a liar and a "nasty woman". > > He said the women accusing him of sexual harassment bordering on assault were either attention-seekers or Clinton campaign stooges. > > He said the media were "poisoning the minds" of the public. And, most notably, he refused to say whether he would accept the results of the election if he loses. > > Mrs Clinton had her own moments where she was put on the defensive - on her emails, on the Clinton Foundation and on embarrassing details revealed in the Wikileaks hack. > > The difference, however, is that Mrs Clinton largely kept her poise and successfully changed the topic back to subjects where she was more comfortable. It was, in fact, a master class in parry-and-strike debate strategy. > > The key takeaway from this debate, however - the headline that Americans will wake up to read in the morning - will certainly be Mr Trump's refusal to back way from his "rigged" election claims. > > That was what Mr Trump wanted to say, but it isn't something the American people - or American democracy - needed to hear.

    Just thought everyone should get a whiff of the post-debate 2016 flava to temper the feeling that anything at all is "in the bag". Also - it's amazing, isn't it.

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  • Text from my wife this morning regarding my dog.

    The dog in question. Showing tongue with hand for scale:

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  • Back When Imagine Dragons Was Good

    So, there's this guy at work, right? And I've been working with him for probably a year or so by the time this story takes place. Same team and everything. Kindof elbow-to-elbow. Good guy.

    The company would take us all out to lunch occasionally. And this one time, 15 or so of us are all sat down at the chain restaurant and shooting the shit about whatever.

    And the music playing at the restaurant plays a song by Imagine Dragons. And then some other random song. And then another one by Imagine Dragons.

    I don't remember specifically how many Imagine Dragons songs they played before we even got our food, but it was enough in a short enough period that someone commented "huh, they're playing a lot of Imagine Dragons today."

    And this was in the period when it was in vogue to dunk on Imagine Dragons, right? And so I'm like "yeah, at least they're playing Imagine Dragons songs from back when Imagine Dragons was good."

    And I expect folks to banter back at me and maybe some folks would defend Imagine Dragons, but probably more would agree, or even take the position that Imagine Dragons was never good. (Again, that was in vogue at the time.)

    But everyone just kind of looks at me awkwardly.

    And I have no idea what's going on until the guy next to me leans over and lets me in on it.

    Apparently the guy directly across from me grew up with the Imagine Dragons band members and nearly ended up in the band at one point in his life.

    And I worked with the guy for a year and never knew that. And I kindof looked like an asshole over it. What are the chances! I don't live anywhere near Las Vegas where Imagine Dragons came from or anything.

    I appologised, of course. He kindof laughed it off, but I still felt bad about it.

    In retrospect, a piece of me wonders if the boss hadn't called ahead and asked the restaurant to play a lot of Imagine Dragons just to make the guy across from me feel special or something. But then again, the vibe this chain restaurant gave off was that probably the restaurant didn't really control the playlist at all. Probably it was just some XM station or something. (It didn't have a DJ or any speaking between songs or anything. Just music. So maybe that gives some credence to the boss-called-ahead theory? Dunno. Dunno.)

    Maybe some day I should call the restaurant and ask if they're able to take music requests or whatever just to get some closure. Lol.

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  • Today is my one year anniversary of not eating solid food.

    Before this starts: This is just me needing to write a hopefully not too long recent autobiography to get things out because I need an outlet.

    PLEASE NO MEDICAL ADVICE!

    I have asked that in other threads when I have talked about this, but I am going to have to put my foot down this time because people give it anyway and say that even if you have something else to say, I will not respond to a post with medical advice. I work with doctors, not people on the internet. If I want advice on this subject, I want people with medical degrees who understand science and are familiar with my medical history to give it to me.

    Also, please keep the pity to a minimum.

    -------

    I apologize if the timeline here is a little messed up, I'm mostly relying on memory because I don't want to dig up a bunch of notes.

    My journey started in December of 2022.

    I just started dry heaving every morning soon after I got up. Other times too, not literally every morning either, but mostly within 10 minutes of getting up almost every morning. Nothing every comes up. It's always dry heaving.

    In March, I just stopped eating. I wasn't hungry or thirsty. I knew I needed liquid if my mouth got dry. The idea of food wasn't appealing. Even very light smells of many types, especially cooked food and flowery smells, disgusted me. It took effort to swallow my pills. After a week, I was drinking ensure and Gatorade to make sure I was getting nutrition and electrolytes.

    Then there involved multiple trips, first to a clinic, then the ER, then doctors, then back to the ER to get tests until, about six weeks later, a nurse handed me some crackers and stood in front of me while I ate them. I did it without very much effort and suddenly I was eating again. I think I lost about 25 pounds, but I was quite overweight- 260 pounds and 5'10" (sorry, rest of the world for using dumb American units). So that was not a bad thing at all.

    In May, the whole family got COVID in case you were wondering if this was COVID-related. In other words, that happened after all of this started.

    I was scheduled for a colonoscopy at the beginning of July (if you're getting into your mid-40s, enjoy the absolutely awful prep). We went ahead and scheduled an EGD as well- that's where they send a scope down your throat. They discovered an ulcer. Aha! That must have been the problem!

    So I take the Pepcid the doctor told me to take and then I had another EGD weeks later and the ulcer was gone. Problem over, right?

    Nope.

    August 22, 2023. 9 a.m. I had a bowl of Special K. It was the last solid meal I have ever eaten. Once again, I just wasn't hungry or thirsty. I didn't eat the rest of the day. Or the next. Smells drove me crazy again. Just the thought of food in my mouth made me totally disgusted, like putting shit in your mouth. I went back on the Ensure and Gatorade diet, since liquids have never been an issue.

    I should add that seeing other people eat or seeing pictures of food- doesn't disgust me. Sometimes it makes me sad because I'd like to eat it too- there is this Nepalese restaurant that opened here something like a week into September 2023 that I have been dying to try- but the basic concept of eating does not bother me. It does not make me anxious or disgusted unless I dwell on the idea of what it would actually be like to have it in my mouth. Imagining the taste is fine. There are restaurants I'd love to go to. You could think of it the way you might react when you see a really cool car or expensive gadget- "I'd love to have that, but I couldn't afford it." It's like that. "I'd love to eat that, but I don't have the ability to do so."

    But then when it actually comes to it in my mouth... once my wife basically forced me to put a part of a single strand of cooked spaghetti in my mouth and it made me nuts. I couldn't chew it or swallow it and I just got more and more anxious until she accepted that I just had to spit it out. My wife and I generally don't fight, but that was not a good day in our relationship.

    I went to doctor after doctor, test after test. Bloodwork wasn't surprising, nothing wrong with my kidneys, nothing wrong with my brain (my neurologist actually called it one of the healthiest brains she ever saw, whatever that means). I use cannabis for a different issue- treating pain for a really bad nerve disorder called trigeminal neuralgia. Cannabis sensitivity was also ruled out. I had a HIDA scan, which is about gallbladder function. The results were sort of between "nothing to worry about" and "possible issue," so I had it taken out in case that was the issue. Getting your gallbladder out is like getting your appendix or tonsils out- you're basically fine without it even if it's healthy.

    On December 20th, yes, it took that long despite supposedly in countries with national healthcare, "the wait times are terrible," I had my gallbladder out. It did not help.

    We were getting desperate, so I wrote to the Mayo Clinic and they accepted me to go there in March. But the experience was so bad, totally on their end, that I got a refund. We did discover a few things from that visit:

    • If my mouth was numbed entirely with lidocaine, I could handle a couple of small bites of food before I couldn't take it anymore.

    • There was no indication of anything gastrointestinal or neurological.

    • A behavioral therapist suggested that something (we don't know what) caused my parasympathetic nervous system to fuck up and I might have an eating disorder known as ARFID. It's only recently been categorized, it used to just be "eating disorder, other specified," but apparently more is known about that now.

    Since then, we have spent months trying to find someone to help me. Either they didn't accept our insurance or they just rejected me outright. Finally, last month, the Charis Center for Eating Disorders, a clinic associated with, oddly enough, Riley Children's Hospital in Indianapolis, agreed to evaluate me.

    That brings us to today when, by a very odd coincidence, I got that evaluation. They think they can help me. The doctor who I saw will consult with other health practitioners there to see about a full care plan for me. I meet with a nutritionist next week to see what I can do to work on a diet plan that is better than what I'm doing now (more on that below). Meanwhile, I need to come up with a plan of my own to slowly thicken the liquid I am drinking until I can take soft food and build up to a specific solid food I have a goal of eating (which will probably be something Indian). I'll be working on that this week.

    She also began by asking my why I think this started and when my wife I made it clear that we had no idea, she said something that had never occurred to me before: it doesn't matter how it started, it matters how we fix it.

    So... here is my life right now.

    First, in terms of nutrition:

    7 am, two Ensures. 9 am, tea. 10-11, possibly a "fun" drink if my mouth feels dry. I'm partial to Jumex Guava nectar lately. 12 pm, two Ensures, two V8s for electrolytes and fiber, also some fiber capsules for added fiber because fuck Gatorade and you have no idea the level of constipation I've had to endure. Any time between 12 and 5 I might have other "fun" drinks if my mouth gets dry. 5 pm, two Ensures, two V8s. 6-8, a small glass of port. Or, lately, some Zing Zang Blazing Bloody Mary. Fuck yeah. Gotta have some enjoyment here. (The Bloody Mary is only 9.0 ABV, I'm not getting drunk.) After that, I try to limit my liquid intake so I don't keep going to the bathroom all night.

    You have no idea how hard it is to find savory things to add to this. Everything people normally drink is either sweet or bitter. Recently, I discovered there are some broths that are not just "chicken stock" or "beef stock" or "vegetable stock." It was a tough decision, but I have put my vegetarianism on temporary suspension just so I can have some savory things like Swanson's spicy chicken broth- incidentally, they say it's a "touch" of heat. That is a lie, unless by touch they mean slap. I mean it's good but I did not expect it to be that spicy. I'm not complaining, mind you. I also got some powdered soup mixes I haven't tried yet.

    I don't do a lot of exercise because I just don't have the energy, but I try to walk the dogs at least 30 minutes a day. I usually have to rest after that and it's not high impact, but it's something.

    I still dry heave every morning.

    Some good news: I have gone from 260 pounds to 177 pounds. I have gone from a 2XL shirt to an XL (I still have a belly, I'm guessing I always will) and from XL pants to medium. In other good news, I no longer have high blood pressure or high cholesterol and have been taken off that medication. Aside from one vitamin which is unusually high, all of my vitals in the very extensive blood work I got done at Mayo are within normal levels.

    There was also some good timing here because soon after I decided to take (unpaid) medical leave from my job, my daughter, who had been bullied for years for being too different from the other kids- she's queer, she wears punk clothes, she listens to old music, she's much more interested in old cult movies than recent popular ones, she likes talking about weird stuff like abandoned malls and what they used to do in insane asylums and the only video games she's into are retro games. She had a total breakdown involving her Halloween costume that I won't get into- but basically the whole school ended up piling on her. We took her out the next day, I quit my job and we put her in a public online school the state offers. It's worked out really well for her because she's getting good grades and finally building up some real self-esteem.

    And, despite all I just told you, in terms of health, other than the low energy I basically feel okay most of the time. Just never hungry, never thirsty, and unable to take a lot of smells. It doesn't even make me upset or even sad at this point. It's just my life. I went to a meetup with a bunch of people I had been talking with on a small forum for years but never met. It was a great time, but I spent basically the entire time outside their house to avoid the food and cat smells. I stayed in their camper, parked in their driveway. It was comfortable enough, so none of that bothered me at all, but everyone else kept feeling sorry for me.

    I hate people feeling sorry for me. If they want to feel something for me, feel angry because I am beyond it even though I probably should feel it. I actually cut contact with a couple of people because I just couldn't take the pity party I got every time I talked to them. This is just my life now. I've come to accept it and I am okay with it until I can fix it. On a day-to-day level, it just doesn't upset me.

    Really, the ones who have suffered the most in many ways have been my wife and daughter. I have made it very clear to them that I want them to have as normal a life as possible despite this issue of mine. I have an office in the garage, where I am typing this right now, that I am happy to go out to when they're cooking. I don't mind not going to restaurant with them. But they feel guilty anyway. Of course they do.

    On top of that, my smell sensitivity has really limited the places I can go with them. Any store that has a strong smell, I may have an issue with. For example, I have to speed by the hot food section in the supermarket. Weirdly enough, the one place I can go that is food-related that I almost never have a problem is cafes. Coffee smell does not bother me whatsoever.

    If if I'm out with my daughter and she wants food, that's a real problem. We definitely can't get takeout. I can't handle that smell in my car, which really sucks for a teenager, although thankfully her mother is fine taking her if she's available to do so.

    So yeah, it's been a year since I've eaten a meal.

    I hope it won't be two. I don't know if I can make it to two. My energy keeps getting lower and I'm still losing weight, albeit much more slowly, but I'm drinking all the Ensure we can afford in terms of a regular expense. Ensure is also one of the cheaper options, especially since we buy it in bulk at Sam's. No one has suggested I'm dying yet or anything, but this obviously is not a sustainable situation in the long term.

    I hope the Charis Center will solve this problem for me. Hopefully we'll also eventually be able to pay off all of the medical debt.

    Thanks for reading if you made it to the end. No tl;dr. There is no way I am summarizing this, sorry.

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  • This was five bucks at Walmart. You're damn right I bought it.

    !

    There's an (original) Planet of the Apes one too apparently, but it wasn't for sale there. I'm going to have to pick it up.

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  • I have a poor sick doggie.

    Her name is Ghost. We rescued her 10 years ago. We think she's a mix of pit bull and dalmatian, although most of her spots have faded away. Her gums are inflamed and it hurts to eat. The vet thinks a full teeth cleaning should fix it. Apparently dogs can get allergies to the tartar in their teeth! Poor old girl. Eating is her favorite thing! We're getting her teeth cleaned on Monday. It could cost up to $1100, but she is worth every penny.

    And on top of that, because her arthritis has gotten really bad, she's going to have to get a $94 shot every month. Again, worth every penny because she's part of our family and we love her so much. She's an evil serial killer of small animals, but we love her anyway.

    The vet did tell us that even 14-year-old dogs who get the shot of the medication, Librela, are able to play and run and jump up on the furniture again. Hopefully she will make it to at least 14 even if she is a big dog. She's in very good health otherwise.

    Here is Ghost when she is not sad and at the vet:

    !

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  • YouTube now shows number of likes instead of views a video gets.

    But it seems to only do this in the home tab. Search and subscription tabs still show the view count.

    !

    Now I don't think view count is much of an indication of quality for a video, but the number of likes even less so. It varies quite a bit even on video to video from the same creator depending on if a like is called out for, or audience type.

    Certainly not the most egregious change they've made, but a bit of an odd one I can't quite figure out why.

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  • Satire/sarcasm doesn't always work cross-culturally

    No joke here. I just think stuff like this is interesting.

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  • Story of two Irish kids (10 and 13) who made their way from Dublin to the UK and finally New York with no tickets in 1985 - Audio [39:02]
    www.rte.ie Don't Go Far...

    your dinner's nearly ready! The adventure of two Dublin children in August 1985 who chanced a free ride on the DART and ended up in New York

    Don't Go Far...

    cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/18671905

    > Absolutely fascinating stuff. The power of social engineering, charm and confidence by two very young kids is mind blowing. Some very funny bits in it too.

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  • A teen was falling asleep during a courtroom field trip. She ended up in cuffs and jail clothes. A big FUCK YOU to Judge Kenneth King.
    apnews.com A teen was falling asleep during a courtroom field trip. She ended up in cuffs and jail clothes

    A teenager on a field trip to see a Detroit court ended up in jail clothes and handcuffs because a judge said he didn’t like her attitude.

    A teen was falling asleep during a courtroom field trip. She ended up in cuffs and jail clothes

    The teen was seeing King’s court as part of a visit organized by The Greening of Detroit, a nonprofit environmental group. During the visit, King noticed the girl falling asleep, WXYZ reported.

    β€œYou fall asleep in my courtroom one more time, I’m gonna put you in back, understood?” the judge said, according to video of his remarks.

    King then had the girl change into jail clothes and wear handcuffs.

    β€œIt was her whole attitude and her whole disposition that disturbed me,” the judge told WXYZ. β€œI wanted to get through to her, show how serious this is and how you are to conduct yourself inside of a courtroom.”

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  • Child Rapist Steven Van De Velde Cries After Being Booed at Paris Olympics
    www.thedailybeast.com Child Rapist Cries After Being Booed at Paris Olympics

    Steven van de Velde said he’d asked himself if taking part in the tournament was β€œworth it.”

    Child Rapist Cries After Being Booed at Paris Olympics

    In 2014, a then-19-year-old Van de Velde traveled to Britain to meet a 12-year-old girl he’d met on Facebook, fully aware of her age. In 2016, he pleaded guilty to raping the schoolgirl and was sentenced to four years in prison. Van de Velde served 12 months behind bars in Britain before being transferred to the Netherlands where he was released a month later.

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