I've always had problems with intrusive thoughts. A few years back I had a really hard breakup that I won't go into the details of. For 6 months I had a TV on, my headphones on with a book running, and was doom scrolling every bit of social media I could when I wasn't working. I started drinking the second I got off work and only stopped when it was time to sleep. Why? Because my intrusive thoughts got LOUD. I couldn't function without something going on all the time.
I went through more than a book a day on audible for those 6 months. One day I forgot to charge the speaker in my shower and I had a whole ass breakdown. There was no point in my life that was silent.
Eventually I got better. It took time but I got there. Now I'm a drunk recreationally instead of because I need to be in order to function. I listen to books for pleasure instead of out of necessity. And much later I did the whole therapy thing and have tools to keep myself from going through that again.
I had a very similar life experience/journey except I did it for the better part of a decade. Eventually we have to live for ourselves instead of just trying to get by day to day.
In all seriousness: Identify habits you do every day that aren’t productive nor bring you genuine enjoyment, and try to cut yourself off from them. You can give yourself time in every day to be more adventurous and make changes.
I don't know, I keep hearing this meme but it's the opposite for me. I think about the incredible buffet of interesting things I listen to all the time. I wish I could think multiple things at once or that I didn't have to pause whatever I'm listening to so I can write about it.
I've wanting to put more effort in using my systems.
Im trying to do the pomodoro technique to pace myself and not burn myself out while enjoying my minecraft on my steamdeck. While going to drive to school and back i give myself more room to breathe and process by having some chill instrumental music.
Trying to go 2 times a week on my bike to get that frustration out, and get out from home.
I havent gone out with friends as much as of late but that rlly helped before to look forwards to the weekend.