Lol just woke up from a stupid nightmare in which my LL sent me a message on reddit and she was dumb enough to have not used a burner account; she was saying all kinds of horrible things about me on landlord subs (with people goading her on) but also complaining about burnout and her partner stressing her out. I started screenshotting everything but the anxiety eventually woke me up. I really can't wait to put her in the past (and someday put all landlords in the past...)
Things I'm particularly grateful for today:
- a job where I feel safe and supported, wanted and not alone
- a good friend I could call and mutually share what's troubling us, someone who totally understands anxiety and is honest and genuinely shows up when asked
- having the motivation to cook from scratch and relieve some of the bodily anxiety
Yep, it's another big batch of Hoppin' John tonight, healthy, cheap and delicious. I'm going to eat dinner in bed now with the OMITB finale on. I'm going to be OK...
New workplace takes absences seriously. Needed med cert for my single day off (needed for one day off if absence is Monday or Friday). Also had a "RTW" chat with manager who asked why I was off, am I okay now, any ongoing issue, anything they can do to help, etc. Quite invasive and definitely serves to dissuade me from future sick leave where it's not absolutely needed - which I suppose is why they do it.
I had a nice morning getting some weeding done in the front yard - having the cloud cover and not having to work in full sun was definitely nice.
I have quite a few patches of self-seeded poppies coming up which is nice, they have been flowering solidly for months and the red works really well with the primarily blue/purple flowers I have in the garden. They work particulalry well with a volunteer borage that is in full flower at the moment too.
I keep listening to podcasts to help me fall asleep. Then I wake up in the middle of the night with an earbud either in my ear or underneath me. Good times!
Today was one of those "if everyone is an asshole, you're the asshole" kind of days.
I'm glad I realised.
New glasses day. It will be nice to not have a perpetual headache!
Cut lots of hair off, hair springs up and is curly and unruly again , argh . Still better than it was tho.
also, it was the gummy vitamins that were def making me feel weird and tingly, they are loaded with sulfites 😠
Housework fretting
Inspection in a few days… And because I didn’t see the letter quick enough and have stuff going on I have less time and will be doing it all myself.
I’ll manage. Do what I can.
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On the ride home on Sunday we also saw an echidna. It was climbing into a flower bed next to the footpath, not even anywhere native looking. Another bonus for bike commuting
Valaris 107 is already leaving the bay, I wish I hadn’t come into the office for this afternoon. I find them so fascinating (on a purely what the fuck can humans build?! kinda way) and always want to get as close as I can, but it’s a bit difficult. I figured watching it go through the heads would be the best way.
Loose connection somewhere in my gaming PC and I so cba with stripping it down right now, or maybe ever. The 5090s are coming soon right?
oh the cats are fractious today. So am I
fuuuck, why does everything take extra steps , nothing is straight forward and easy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1kKoqE-sAb8
Coraline was excellent. I don't know what else to say.
I will be saying, "Cease your infernal yapping," to my dog. I hope it works.
