What did you do to survive the night of/after a breakup?
Boyfriend of 2 years (best friend of 6) just told me he’s started seeing someone else. No discussion. Just ghosted me for a week and hit me with this news. Thought he was my soulmate, lmao. I feel like someone just ripped out my insides. Just turned 31 this year, this shit is not any easier than when I was a teenager.
How did you make it through that first night? The second? The third? Is it really just time? I feel like my body is too old to survive another heartbreak.
My little piece of advice: you don’t have to think about the future, tomorrow, next week, they are all far off. Think about now, this hour, the next 5 minutes, or whatever stretch of time seems manageable. What do you do now? Cook dinner? Watch a show? Cry in the shower? The future might be scary and too much to manage now. You’ll handle it when you get to it. Now, you only have to think about right now.
Verbena tea is calming and soothing. Lavender is relaxing. Green tea for me is a calming ritual.
You got this. Maybe it doesn’t feel like it, but you only need to do one step, and you got that one step.
I don't think there's magic one size fits all answer to this, it really sucks you have to deal with it. Avoid destructive behaviours like drinking until you pass out etc, they won't help in the long term. Do you have any friends IRL you can call on?
Soulmate is a fabrication. You find someone you like that likes you. You can tolerate their downsides and they can tolerate yours. GGG in the sack. Willing to work things out. There is no such thing as the perfect match but there are lots of people out there that will sit pretty high on your list. When you find one of them give it a go, hope it will work out, but it won't always go the way you want. Eventually it will stick or it won't, either way you've had a good time of it and start the next part of your adventure.
As a highly sensitive person, what I've learned for me is:
It takes time - years, even - to understand what happened, and why. Which means there's nothing productive to be done except avoid things you'd regret. Be your best self, even if it's hard as hell. If you care about this person, give them the space they evidently need; and leave the door open to reconnecting later in until you've decided, with a clear head and understanding why, that you'll never eant them in your life.
Prioritize caring for your basic mental and physical needs by getting enough sleep, food, exercise, and time outdoors.
Treat yourself like you're sick with the flu or a cold. Get rest if you can. Find ways to relax. Give yourself time to heal. Mindless things like TV or videogames can be good. Socializing is also good.
Partners can ground us; make us feel secure, taken care of, connected to our world, full of purpose and value, etc. In the long term, without them, you need to re-ground and find things that give you those feelings. I had to come up with a list of things that make me feel connected and worthwhile, then take steps to engage in those. It included creative hobbies and dedicating time to good friends. Finding "myself" and things that felt meaningful took work: self-reflection and journaling, forcing myself to do hobbies until I enjoyed them, and becoming inspired by good art (TV, music) I love. Often our roots are in our upbringing, so it can be good to reconnect with things we loved. Once you have a life without your ex, you don't need them. You don't need any partner as much, for that matter, because what sustains you is more within your power and identity. And that's how future relationships can be made safer, and heartbreak survivable.
I turned on my computer and started to play mass effect 2... during 48h.
Slept a bit.
Call my family and friends to go out and not be alone.
Continue living.
Two years later I met my actual partner and we have a beautiful life with two incredible kids.
Just remember: losing someone hurts but is not the end, the heart heals.
I've tried many things in this situations (seeing other girls, distracting with alcohol/drugs, etc) but they all just seem to alleviate the pain when they just throw it under the rug for a while.
For me, the best way to handle this has been to face my pain altogether. This pain does not come from this event. It is my own ancient pain that has been triggered by my now ex. Staying with the pain, listening to it, feeling it in your body and letting it be there is a transformative act.
I recommend listening to Pema Chödron's videos or books. Maybe "When things fall apart". I personally have been helped a lot by doing the "tonglen" meditation.
You feel vulnerable and it's okay. Sounds like you need to realize you dodged a bullet.
About the question, remember that you are you and the only things that you need to keep going is to breath, to drink water, to eat and to keep yourself healthy. Everything else are probably ideas in your head that can change at any time. If you are struggling, remember to breath deeply. It will be okay.
There are a couple of things here... firstly you're thinking about him being with someone else - that's not just a 'breakup', that's worse.
Anyway, I found relaxing to be difficult so I went out and did stuff - also I just met lots of friends and tried not to be on my own. During my last breakup, I had someone to meet every day after work for a week - and that put some distance which made it easier.
The night of the breakup I went to my best bud's house and talked and smoked for hours. After that, I worked on myself, started reading again, going to the gym again and finally got myself checked out by a psychiatrist and a psychologist. I had been putting all of that off for a long time and if there was ever a more cliche time to start, it was then.
Been about 2 years, half of what I was with her, and I still sometimes wish I had someone like her. I miss the connection I had with her. We went through a lot and at the time I thought I'd marry the girl. Then covid happened, some family tragedies, and suddenly our vibe was off. Sucks, but it woulda sucked more if it happened years later in life.
It was easier for me than it was for her, though. I've got issues regarding failure (not sure how else to word it). Whenever something might go tits up, I emotionally distance immediately. Job opportunities, dying pets, relationships, same defensive mechanism. Causes more trouble than it avoids, honestly, because I never know when to trust a gut feeling, or to stop being like this.
I still don't feel 100%, but I wasn't 100% when we broke up. Not looking for anything new, or to start up anything old again either.
Throw a fucking party that you dodged a bullet. He was going to cheat on you at some point, better to get this over with now than after marriage and/or kids.
Be happy that you are single and get to live a single life. Do all the things you like to do that he didn’t.
Enjoy life. Fuck that guy (not literally, seriously, delete him from your life)
My partner of just under 15 years left me out of the blue three years ago.
It... wasn't easy. I understood her reasons, but that didn't make it emotionally more acceptable, especially having not known about it beforehand as after so many years it was the only big thing, "never keep anything back at all, no matter what".
But I suspect my case was a bit different than yours, as the problem wasn't the first night. She had been gone for a week or so for work before, or even 2 weeks for a Mallorca trip with a bunch of friends, so the first 3-4 days were perfectly fine. It hit really hard after about a week, and then lasted for about a month.
What I had to do was significantly change the flat. Not only rip out stuff that was "hers", but more importantly reorganize rooms so that the association was gone. It helped. Once that part was changed, I could pretty quickly calm down. I needed that constant reminder of "us" gone. As if I had just moved into a new flat on my own, and this was all me!
That being said, there was one other thing. It sounds vain as hell, but I got a fuckbuddy. Sex helps. Happy hormons and all. It didn't help on its own, but coupled with steadily changing the flat around me and engaging more with my personal hobbies over our shared hobbies, it was enough to get me through it.
Quite sudden breakup after almost 16 years. He didn't love me anymore.
I made it through the first night listening to a recording of my mom reading my two favourite child books to me when I was three (these recordings were originally done on tape, but I digitalised them a few years ago and they are a bit of an auditory security blanket). That helped me through the night. Next morning, completely numb, I went to a bakery and bought something to eat, then I drove over to my best friend where I spent the whole day, crying and cursing but also laughing and most importantly talking. At the end of that, I was in a mindset where I knew this would hurt like fuck but it was better this way.
What followed were six weeks where my ex still lived in the same apartment and slept in the same room (we didn't split in a fight, it simply was over), I fled to my best friend once per week and worked from there (self employed) and spent my weekends Friday afternoon till Sunday evening at my parents. I talked a lot with friends and family, took lengthy walks and overall just tried to make it through every day.
Once my ex was gone for good, my best friend came over for three days and helped with a deep clean of the apartment and setting up some new furniture to replace what he'd taken with him. Then I started my new life.
All I can say is, it gets better, it gets easier, and in hindsight it was one of the best things that happened to me.
It was in August of 2018, after almost 16 years. In January of 2020 I met my new partner who taught me what I'd missed in all that time.
As I was told by someone, you are going through the grieving process. One moment, you'll be sad, then angry, then accepting, and then angry and sad at the same time. Your grieving process is unique. Time and distance does help.
When my ex-fiancé ended things almost out of the blue. I slept most of the time. When I was sleeping, I didn't have to think about being dumped. I reached out to people to get the support system going. I wrote a letter to them, a very angry and emotional letter. Then I re-wrote it. I read that letter to my ex-fiancé to try to get back together. I purged and clean my apartment, made plans to back to school and get a Bachelors of Law, and even started learning a new language so I could move to a new country. Having a plan for the future helped a lot even if it was slightly insane.
They wrote a response letter confirming their decision. I spent the next several months trying to get over the anger that was there. I went solo camping and did a hike. I ate a low dose of magic mushrooms and wrote my response out. I found that a lose dose of magic mushrooms was able to break down walls and allow me to think about everything in different manner. While that helped with the process, it didn't get rid of the anger. I did eventually send my last attempt letter/here are some things you can grow on too/thank you letter to my ex-fiancé.
I went on a lot of hikes and talked to people about the anger that would never go away. Eventually it was suggested that I write everything out and burn it.
I decided to go camping with someone to a place that was at least 3 hour drive away. Ate another low dose of magic mushrooms and sat in the middle of a water fall writing out the most angry letter ever. Then I burned the letter right there with the original draft of the last attempt letter/here are some things you can grow on too/thank you letter. As it was pointed out to me the symbolism of writing an angry letter right in the middle of water being turbulent was on point. It helped that the river before and after the falls was extremely calm, which represented the before and after the break up. I let all the negative energy be purified by the flame and water.
I went back to the campsite and wrote another letter, however this was all positive about my summer and what I achieved and looking forward too. I preceded to burn it in the fire to release all the positive energy back into the universe. As the magic mushrooms were telling me that needed to be done. The next day, I went on long and difficult hike to help cement the symbolism of moving onto a new adventure.
While the anger tries to flare up once and awhile, I tell myself that there is no need to be angry anymore. I got out of my system.
The final two pieces of advice; if you can, go no contact with them. Having them in your life is going to prevent the healing. I still love my ex-fiancé however having them in my life as a friend would only lead to major problems for both of us. The second piece, you're never going to truly going to get over it, it's like the death of a family member or the loss of a good friendship. It's part of your life now. You learn to live with it.
Talking to my family and hugging my cats, it sound silly but i felt that my cats knew that i was hurting, so they were extra caring. It will take time to heal, but it will get better.
It's just time. Might suck for a little time or a long time though.
If you want to make it suck for as little as possible just go no contact and don't snoop. It really is as simple as that. Although I'm very aware it's a hard thing to do.
The shock gave me a fever that stayed with me for two weeks and I felt really tired, so I went to bed at like 8pm on most nights. Saw a therapist (wasn't much help, but it was worth a shot). Told my boss about it who said I could take any time off that I needed. Told my coworkers so they'd know why I might not be working full time and would have trouble concentrating in the upcoming weeks. It was a relief that I didn't have to be at the top of my game at work and nobody would judge me.
It got better after about three months. She kept doing new things that hurt me though so the pain kept returning for a full year, until it finally sunk in that she can't be trusted and we'll never become friends again. At that point I just tried to let her know as little as possible about my life, to give her fewer ways to hurt me. We still have to talk because we have shared custody of two kids.
Several years later I started seeing a therapist again because I just couldn't stop feeling recurrent anger and anxiety related to her. After telling the therapist about everything that had happened they basically said I shouldn't see my ex at all. Not let her into my home, and when I leave the kids with her I can say goodbye to them at the parking lot. It took so much weight off my shoulders when I didn't have to force myself to act like we were close friends in front of the kids.
Moral of the story: Go no contact and fully accept right now that you're never going back. Begin anew. You have your whole life in front of you.
When my first wife walked out, I felt similar. The way I got through is to remember that everything is temporary, including the pain you feel. You will feel better in the future.
Now I’m with someone who’s much better for me, and this will happen to you too. You may not believe it, but it’s true. The best person for you is the one you will end up with, and they’re still out there. You just have to remember that the future holds that for you.
Another thing that really helped me was leaning on my friends. If you have some really close friends, don’t be afraid to ask them for support.
And cry. It sounds weird, but crying, like big super wailing tears of ugly crying, will help you feel better. Crying for like 20 minutes will make you feel a lot better than holding it in for 2 days.
Scientifically speaking, yes, it takes time for your body to rebalance your hormones that love inbalanced, and messed up. Good news, it won't take so long.
I’m 46.
I had some really bad breakups in my life, was alone for a couple of years.
Until I met my (now) wife just 4 years ago.
This changed everything because it made me realize that what I thought to be love before was just a shadow of what love truly is.
Keep looking forward and do not torture yourself over what could have been or what went wrong.
Nothing went wrong. It’s just life that happened.
There will be some amazing person out there and you just haven’t stumbled upon this person yet.
It’s ok to grief a bit. That’s healthy.
But look forward and do not hurt yourself in the process.
I used it as fuel to make positive changes in my life. Not just breakups, but any time life throws something really awful my way, I try to make an effort to use it as a force good. Breakups, deaths, job loss, etc. Be a better you, quit smoking, get fit, learn a new skill. Things I normally wouldn't be motivated to follow through, i do.
Sorry you're going through this. Try to remember that it will get easier in time. Accept it wasn't meant to be, and know there's a version of you in the future, looking back at this knowing it was all worth it to find the person right for you.
First of all I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through. It's gonna hurt, and they are times when you may feel things are too much. Just take things a day at a time, if that's too long take it an hour at a time or so on. I'd you have friends or family you can rely on spend time with them.
My first relationship was a 2 year one with a friend too. I blocked her on everything and cut out anything in my life that reminded me of her and immediately tried dating again, mistake for me. There will be times where you think you hear his voice and there will be a smell that reminds you of them.
It's ok to feel hurt sad blindsided all that. My DMs are open if you want to talk about anything as well if you don't feel comfortable talking to someone you know. I was 23 when I went through my first breakup but 31 is not too old. My mother-in-law found live at 70 so you're never too old.
but fr what worked well for me was blocking, deleting, getting rid of (or stuffing into a rarely used closet) anything that reminded me of them, then distracting myself 24/7 long enough to later process my emotions with a little bit of distance from the event itself - not to block out the feelings but to just avoid ruminating on them.
Mostly the point was buying time to provide my monkey brain with hard proof that I can survive without that person, that way it stops shooting me up with the Bad Chemicals every time I think of them.
Hey, everyone else already told everything I thought about saying, but I wanted to comment just to wish you strength. Take one day at a time, ok? Been there, and I know how hard it can be, but it gets better. It takes time, but it gets better.
What I recommend? Find something to distract yourself. Time heals, although not completely; it's often like a physical cut, you might get some scar that itches from time to time but it won't be as painful as the fresh wound.
Can't really recall if Fallout or Silent Storm but got out of the chair the next day to go to work feeling tired but relaxed from the amount of gratuitous violence I could inflict on imaginary figures to vent all the feelings of betrail and disappointment I had felt when it happened. Over SMS.
First night i was stunned by the breakup, thought it must be a nightmare or a joke or a prank or something, so i just sit there with my mind blank. Was 30 at that time and she's my first love.
Second day it finally hit me this is real, so i cried the whole day while still need to work, though the work help took my mind off from the shock. Driving back home is the hardest as i will break down crying at any moment given. I'm just a dead man walking around, completely empty from the inside. I cried the whole night.
Thoughout the whole months it basically the same thing repeated every day, i cried more in this few months than i did in my lifetime. The second month me is starting to get better, or so i thought. Occasionally i will break down crying, thinking what i done wrong because there's no closure from her.
The third month experience is basically month two but with less breakdown, but still occasionally thinking what could've gone wrong.
Then throughout the first year, the crying get less and less and i would miss her less and less, but the scar it inflict is just too painful for me to look for another love.
But yes, it's really just time. I tried to rush though it but end up getting worst instead. Having friends and families to reach out to would help a tons.
Keep a daily diary, starting on the first day. Just write the day number since the breakup, and one word to describe your overall mood (I usually use Good, Bad and Meh).
First few are going to be rough, but you'll be surprised how quickly you start seeing a pattern of more good than bad.
When you get 3 good days in a row, it's time to stop keeping count. It'll happen quicker than you think.
I was 19 when I had my so-far worst one, now 28. I dealt with it by going trail running. I had an intramural trail running club I was helping to lead at the time, and wound up captaining for a couple of years, and I would go extra hard with the lead group because at the time it felt like pushing myself through the pain helped my mental suffering (and it was healthier than self-harm). About six months after the breakup I set a five-mile time at a community race that was a good two minutes faster than my previous PR, and which I haven't come close to since.
I also had really supportive friends and wrote some really angsty songs.
That being said, I also almost had to drop out of college because my grades tanked, and only got to stay because I was lucky enough to qualify into the music department on a good audition for a probationary quarter, and then get my shit together long enough to pass the classes I needed to declare the major. So your mileage may vary.
Someone else here said to spend time reflecting, but I found this only made things (edit) worth worse for myself.
My secret weapon is distraction, it's the only thing that truly helps when I'm in a, uh, dangerous (for me) mood. Distracting yourself with things you love doing helps distancing yourself from the situation and makes you realise there is more to life than your ex.
No amount of talking about my feelings or reflecting on the relationship has helped me as much as listening to music, drawing, baking, exploring new online communities etc.
You know how people will say if you start lying to yourself that you're great and happy, you'll eventually start believing it? It's similar to that, I think, you remind yourself often enough that there are other things you love and that make life worth living.
So, yeah, time + filling your life to the brim with things and activities you love.
I think it helps to remember that it’s natural and right to be hurting right now. There’s no way to avoid the pain, but it’s not an indicator of there being anything wrong with you. Perfectly normal to be in pain right now.
Ok I'm going to tell you what not to do based on my huge errors
I was dumped by my ex of 6 years on our anniversary and she ran off with someone else. I deserved it, I was an excessive alcoholic coke dealing addict.
Now when I was dumped I knew it was well deserved given what I mentioned. And well I went on a bender, i got black out drunk constantly including blowing massive amounts of coke, real Scarface moment. And well eventually that same week, i was roofied and sexually assaulted by a white woman.
I was going to off myself after that, by driving off a cliff. but I called a suicide hotline and was referred to therapy which I'm still doing today. That was 2018. I was 27 then.
I've recovered a lot, I quit coke later that year, gave up that hustle. And today I've turned most of my life around, I quit drinking alcohol last year.
If I could do it again I would tell myself to sit and process with the emotions of that bombshell that being dumped was... Unfortunately I ran to places to numb myself more and got very hurt. No one deserves to be sexually assaulted, but it's something I had to really process, because if I had handled things better I wouldn't have gone to a bar... I would have gone straight to therapy. So if you have the means I highly recommend it. I'm 31 now, live on my own and do my best to constantly work on myself mentally, if it wasn't for therapy I would have never been aware of my ADHD diagnosis a year into the therapy sessions.
If you need advice I know what it's like to go through this stuff at our age, my DMs are open for you.
I believe in soul mates I'm a spiritual person, but each day you hang in there I promise you get stronger just don't dive into any hedonistic &/or escapist behavior. Trust me
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Working out is also I started doing immediately, it helps clear the mind.
Basically because during a relationship I let it become part of my identity. Younger me thought this was part of being a good partner, you know... giving everything. Turns out it's really not.
Nothing will make the next week any easier I'm sorry. In the coming weeks maybe some acceptance & commitment therapy. Loads of books on this subject, it will help you to think about your core values.
Maybe think about antidepressants if things are really bleak - but be aware that's a whole other journey.
I'm sorry to hear about your pain. There is already loads of good advice in here and I don't want to just regurgitate. I have found this video channel helpful in the past so I'll leave it here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vbIO3TpLXY
I promptly got myself inside a lady friend. And then another. And acted like it didn't hurt. Two months later I was crying myself to sleep and into a major depressive episode.
I don't know what the proper course of action should be. Just power through it and be on the lookout for depression signs. It slowly gets better but if you find yourself stuck in a hole, don't be afraid to ask for professional help.
It was the worst time of my life but hey...it's been almost 5 years and here I am breathing. My life utterly collapsed but you just build a new one.
My ex fiancée left me two years ago. We were together for 10 years. It's difficult, if you have a friend reach out to them. Being alone was the worst thing for me.
I leaned on as many friends as I could. Break ups are universally difficult and even friends you might not have seen in a while tend to have empathy and love to spare to help you get through this.
I also leaned on as much self care stuff as I could. I take long baths, sleep a lot, and take an appropriate amount of time off from work as sick time to do things.
Also, block your ex and purge his stuff from your life as fast as possible. That's usually the best option if he pulled something like he did here.
I'm sorry you're going through it. Remember to grieve and that grief isn't a linear process. You'll have good and bad days, but you can get through to the other side stronger.
Currently going through something halfway similar, having been ghosted by the girl I was dating. Really cut up about it, and yeah, I'm in my thirties so obviously convinced I'm inherently unlovable.
In the very short term? Ask the doctor for three days supply of diazepam.
Talk to a friend about everything you're feeling. Bitch about all his worst qualities and be extra petty about it. Cry about all his good qualities that you'll miss. Watch a new show or movie or an old comforting favorite (anything that doesn't remind you of him). Have a long Lemmy scrolling session to try to take your mind off it for a while. Cry some more. Tell yourself how life is so unfair, and sometimes it sucks. Scream out loud, and get some stuff off your chest that you'd never say to his face. Cry again. Write down everything you're feeling, then keep it, or burn it (whatever feels right in the moment). Hydrate after all the crying. Don't forget to eat, and eat whatever you feel like. Try to get some sleep.
Potentially repeat some of those things the next day, and the next, but hopefully fewer and fewer as the days go by, and the feelings become less pointed.
I spent the rest of the day getting a new apartment, moved out, and used the night to move into my own, free space void of her. Not sure I slept, watched my favorite movies she didn’t like etc.
I only learned that she had already been seeing someone else the day after. That flipped a switch in me and all the pain went away. I knew she was the wrong choice and glad I was out of it and free.
Somehow, that she cheated made it much, much easier than that she just didn’t love me anymore. It turned into a f*ck you good riddance moment.
Her new bf even helped me moved some larger stuff a week later, I didn’t care at all, I was so done with her. Never looked back.
Time heals.
On the bright side, you're single during your 30's! Those are the best fuckin years for living life! You're no longer a child figuring out who you are. This is you're prime baby! Take some time to mourn. Then get out there and have some fun! Don't dive into any commitments YOLO!
No one is worth your suffering, and if that sometimes does not seems enough then remember that no one who truely loves you deserves witnessing impotently you bursting your heart and mind out about somebody that instead does not even love you nearly enough.
Try reconnecting with the people who loves you and whom with their relationship with you naturally help to make you feel more self confident, you'll notice you're still that fine and self confinent person and that you aren't really missing anything that important, surely not important as you. Good luck and keep it up, you're awesome!
I cried myself to sleep and tried not to self harm. Working on 4 years of keeping that going. I haven't hurt myself in a good while I still have no self worth so not sure how I am doing or if anything I say can help you through all of that... Stay strong friend.
As I recall, I lay on the floor and screamed into a pillow until I puked. Then I cleaned up and decided he wasn't worth putting my body and mind through that sort of trauma, so I went and slashed his tires. Not sure if this helps. I honestly think numbing yourself with whatever won't kill you is a good option.
The next day was the day I started running, I mean, as a sport. I still did some stupid things for the next years and even recently but it was the beginning of my journey to mental health and peace of mind. Today I am at peace with myself. Just focus on the things you love. If you think you have nothing, remember what makes you laugh, what you used to enjoy, what would you like doing again. Or maybe just try finding new things. But actually try.
Do the things that give you inner peace, for me it was always walking in nature, and so I did every day for a year following the breakup, it really helped.
Cried a lot, called my mates, ingested hideous cocktail of substances, then stayed in bed for a week ordering food in and watching the entirety of game of thrones.
Clean cut. Delete everything about them. Block them on every platform. Go out with friends socially, as much as possible. Maybe pick up a rebound fling.
Basically distract myself for a couple weeks until it doesn't hurt so much. Time will heal it, it just takes time
If you play video games, just pick up a game that requires more or less your full attention, or at least active thought, to play. It's really helpful if you need to just quiet your mind for a while and stop your thoughts spiraling out of control. It's not going to solve any of your problems, but it can help get your thoughts in line enough to start working through your feelings.