Why do they have to make it so hard to be a human being. I just want to live in a community and have a job that is halfway fulfilling and have a girlfriend
But no we all need to be miserable all the fucking time
Honestly 30s are better than your 20s. In my 20s I had a lot of anxiety about myself, my worth, and who I was.
By my 30s I think I had really proved to myself that I was worth something, and was more at peace with who I was, and also just generally more established so I didn't care what other people thought of me.
I'm 25 now and I'm trying to sort my shit out but I'm afraid I'm doomed no matter what. If you don't have a stable foundation in your teens (and I didn't), your 20's are going to suck hard.
I feel like I'm a similar position, especially the part about the stable foundation. It's like my mental and social state is what should've been when I was 18 or 19, but I'm 25. I'm also feeling doomed. I'm trying to hype myself up by saying that at least I'm in a position to enjoy the rest of my youth, but it's hard with people becoming increasingly unavailable due to jobs and long term relationships.
I'm literally the most active person I know. That's the worst part. Despite having days of feeling like shit I'm still doing a lot. Maybe those days are just vents for all the negative energy I've got too accumulate.
My 20s were kinda solid, but certainly limited by money and a lack of job opportunities. I wanted to travel the world, or at least the US. Still, I had fun where I could.
Sometimes I beat myself up about squandering opportunities in high school and college but then I remember all the shit I got to do while focusing on my bands and I do not regret that shit one bit. I didn’t realize how unusual it was to have social hobby experiences outside of adult-planned-and-chaperoned extracurriculars. I got myself into some situations that could have easily gone way worse but it was a good time.