Just got out of the hot tub, feeling pretty good about everything right now.
Sitting at work, instead of being out taking photos of birds with my new camera and lens!
Working. Not working.
I'm preparing to go to bed instead of painting Warhammer 40K Orks.
Orks? Orks?! Paint them tomorrow. And then show them to !warhammer40k@lemmy.world
Chances are low I'll do that, I paint for myself. I like painting models since it is analog and I work on a computer all day. It's an activity that I do for my own benefit thus I'm reluctant to share with the public for fear of losing that feeling of self fulfillment. I'm also a far better painter than a photographer.
Edit: Your genestealers are coming along nicely.
Learning.
I am a lazy piece of shit.
I'd like to learn some programming, morse code, perhaps another language as well.
But I quickly loose any motivation. At least for the past 2 years. I do get some occasional bursts of motivation, but usually I often don't feel like doing anything at all anymore. I wouldn't even breathe if it wasn't automatic.
Preferably I'd be dead. I'd have 0 issues, create 0 issues, have no regrets. It would be better for everyone, myself included.Hey I've definitely been in your place before. What got me learning coding skills was motivation for a career change, a platform that worked for me (Udemy), and accepting my failed attempts. Small bursts of motivation are more than what most people have. Utilizing them when they come on are opportunities to get a lot done in short periods of time. Don't dedicate yourself to paths that don't appeal to you, half the fun is figuring out what kind things make you tick.
As far as wanting to be dead, existentialism is always a painful bitch. Reading Marcus Aurelius' Meditations helped me alot. It doesn't take away pain, but can help cultivate core reasons for one's actions. That helps with existing, at least for me.
Don't beat yourself up.
Get yourself checked your for adhs or similar executive functioning disorders. It's the must frustrating thing in the world to want to do something and not being able to get into gear.
This can be very hard, especially if you're in the US where "getting something checked out" can be excessively expensive and cost prohibitive. Shelling out $100 to go see a doc for something that's not an emergency is not an option for many people.
Unfortunately, it seem like those in power are interested in changing that and many people are not voting for candidates who want to change it. So, here we are.
awake when want asleep
This is also my answer.
eating cookies instead of having a loving trusting mutually attractive partner to cuddle with.
Go out and socialize. I was lucky to have met someone at a party that ended up as my life partner. But it wasn't without me getting out of my comfort zone. I'd never asked anyone out on a date before. My two relationships before then happened because the other party asked me out. First one broke up with me after 5 months, probably thought I was boring. Second one divorced me after 12 years. (Married young, she turned out to be very weird as we grew older, and I didn't have the balls to end it for fear of being alone and hurting her.)
Literally one or two weeks after divorce was finalized I met this girl at a party at a mutual friend's place and I said to myself, there's literally no time to waste if you want to be happy. You gotta grab these opportunities. Gotta seize'em. Ask her out! Nothing to lose!
So I did. A day later on Facebook. 🫣 But she said yes and here we are with two kids.
Go out there! Get yours! ❤️
pooping at work instead of exploring the multiverse in a scifi timespace ship
Dang, exploring the multiverse sounds way better. I like your style!
I just read Tau Zero by Paul Anderson and I think I'm good on large-scale travel now
Want to watch the aurora but it's raining, god damn it
I'm currently taking a dump in the state of Georgia USA. (My home state)
I wish I was taking a dump in a mansion on the French Riviera.
As someone who has taken dumps in mansions in both the state of Georgia and the French Riviera, I agree. Costs a lot more in the French Riviera, though.
My friend, as soon as the bathroom door closes the outside world exists entirely in your imagination. You can be taking a dump on the Rocinante if that’s what your heart desires.
Grumpily observing the ampere app on two devices I'm charging simultaneously, disappointed the charging brick isn't living up to its hype of 67W. Yes, I even pulled out the converter website because the app provides both mA and voltage.
I could be snuggling cats. Spooning my girlfriend. Settling in for the night, but, alas. I was promised "super fast charging" and only got "fast charging".
Priorities, am I right?
Doing
I'm watching Travelers on Netflix after getting back from leg day at the gym. About to eat some pressure cooked chicken (tikki masala and tapatío as simmer sauce).Rather
I suppose I'd rather be watching Travelers on Netflix after getting back from the gym.. earlier, while stoned and hanging out with someone I was dating, but dating apps are the poo.Haha, 11p for me, not much variation available this time of night.
Good show so far for SciFi lovers. Reminds me a bit of Fringe for some reason tho the storylines are nothing alike.
You would probably like Continuum then. Travelers was a great show and needed another season.
This
Scrolling Lemmy instead of reading the book that I'm pretty into. I've been staying up too late reading lately, and its not late yet, and so I could read now but inertia is keeping me doomscrolling
I wish I was surfing but the sets are like, 10 ft faces. That's way out of my weight class. So instead I'm still working.
Watching Elliott Smith vids on YouTube instead of sleeping
I wish I was still gaming but I gotta get up early to take my car in for an oil change
If you're handy, I encourage you to look into changing your own. Biggest hurdle for me personally was knowing where to drop off old oil. Also, fumoto valves. Game changer.
Watching a shitty movie (Battlefield Earth) and scrolling Lemmy.
Wishing I was being ploughed by a cutie with a huge cock.
Playing game on my pc. I'd rather be doing something I haven't done before like go drinking all night, travel, go sight seeing, hell, even have sex. Literally anything other than sit at this computer
Awake on Lemmy because I can't sleep.
Doomscrolling instead of sleeping
